life has been good recently.
saturday was the inter-church captain's ball and soccer tournament. i was dragged into the team which was seemingly assembled pretty last-minute. tean cg5, covenant a team. haha.
Anyway by the hand of Providence, or a stroke of amazing grace we did pretty well and got into the finals. which wasnt played. cos the opposition was the covenant b team. and that made it sort of redundant. in a good way. cos everyone was pretty tired.
And im feeling pretty tired too, now. Aside from the fact that its one in the morning at the moment, today's been pretty stressful. All the unspoken things.
And i've been torn these few days between confrontation and just leaving this issue alone. I cannot deny the fact that this is affecting me quite a bit. I dont know how much i value my friendship with you, and i will not say that it has not been depreciating in value a lot ever since. And i confess my part to play in this rift. because i admit that i saw your name on the phone, and i made a conscious decision not to answer. not one that im proud of. and i have not been able to let the issue cloud our friendship.
and now it seems i have to let go somewhere. because its not good straining everyone like this.
Because i am not a fighter. when i played with the church soccer team back in junior secondary, we were behind quite a lot. And i would tell myself, it's no use being upset and demoralised, i've got to fight, now is the time. But somehow it never worked. So i just stood around and kicked grass. And when i played chess with reuel, i'd mostly win except for the times i blundered away a piece early game. And lost my head.
Fighting is not fun. I wish i had the guts to get up when im down, but it happens up there and not where it matters. So im pretty much in a dilemma now.
Incidentally, i dropped my phone three times last week . So there are 2 ugly scratches on it. (i know it doesnt add up. but im not too sure why). 5 more months until my contract runs out!
And i forgot to mention that we went to the airport to send auntie waiyin and uncle giles and thibault and adrian off. They're going back to germany. Doesnt seem like they cared much about the little fest going on over there right now. I think thibault is scared of me. Which is a first. thibault and my little sister get along really well. and there were the usual cries of 'thibault has a girlfriend!' and 'omigosh but they're sooo young!'. which isnt really right really, cos they're close relations, making it inappropriate. but thibault doesnt understand english(only speaks french, german and chinese(?!)) and my sister hasnt learned to talk yet, so they didnt understand, which is quite as well. some things are better off left unsaid. especially if you say them too many times.
saturday was the inter-church captain's ball and soccer tournament. i was dragged into the team which was seemingly assembled pretty last-minute. tean cg5, covenant a team. haha.
Anyway by the hand of Providence, or a stroke of amazing grace we did pretty well and got into the finals. which wasnt played. cos the opposition was the covenant b team. and that made it sort of redundant. in a good way. cos everyone was pretty tired.
And im feeling pretty tired too, now. Aside from the fact that its one in the morning at the moment, today's been pretty stressful. All the unspoken things.
And i've been torn these few days between confrontation and just leaving this issue alone. I cannot deny the fact that this is affecting me quite a bit. I dont know how much i value my friendship with you, and i will not say that it has not been depreciating in value a lot ever since. And i confess my part to play in this rift. because i admit that i saw your name on the phone, and i made a conscious decision not to answer. not one that im proud of. and i have not been able to let the issue cloud our friendship.
and now it seems i have to let go somewhere. because its not good straining everyone like this.
Because i am not a fighter. when i played with the church soccer team back in junior secondary, we were behind quite a lot. And i would tell myself, it's no use being upset and demoralised, i've got to fight, now is the time. But somehow it never worked. So i just stood around and kicked grass. And when i played chess with reuel, i'd mostly win except for the times i blundered away a piece early game. And lost my head.
Fighting is not fun. I wish i had the guts to get up when im down, but it happens up there and not where it matters. So im pretty much in a dilemma now.
Incidentally, i dropped my phone three times last week . So there are 2 ugly scratches on it. (i know it doesnt add up. but im not too sure why). 5 more months until my contract runs out!
And i forgot to mention that we went to the airport to send auntie waiyin and uncle giles and thibault and adrian off. They're going back to germany. Doesnt seem like they cared much about the little fest going on over there right now. I think thibault is scared of me. Which is a first. thibault and my little sister get along really well. and there were the usual cries of 'thibault has a girlfriend!' and 'omigosh but they're sooo young!'. which isnt really right really, cos they're close relations, making it inappropriate. but thibault doesnt understand english(only speaks french, german and chinese(?!)) and my sister hasnt learned to talk yet, so they didnt understand, which is quite as well. some things are better off left unsaid. especially if you say them too many times.
posted by Keith at 10:01 AM
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