To you, in particular; I know i dont know much and stuff, but if you need to talk about it, just give me a call. Sometimes it's just better to let things out, you know, get your thoughts straightened out and stuff.

Got up on the wrong side of bed today. Just didn't feel right, somehow. And that funny feeling persisted throughout today. And it bugged me quite a bit, i admit. But then, again my problem is a minor one. Probably the only reason why its here is cos this is my blog, and its supposed to be about me anyway. And im supposed to be the stable guy. So i'll have to get over this issue pretty fast.

And i will. Cause i have to. And there's really no point being concerned with factors beyond my control, you know.

Every now and then i wonder if its just a dream im chasing. But then i think over it, and i come to the conclusion that its not. If it were, id accept a replacement, i guess. But i wont, so its not. I think.

I think this sounds kind of emo. Though it's not supposed to be. Don't worry, i'll be okay in the morning. The night does funny things to people.

“My demand upon the philosopher is known, that he take his stand beyond good and evil and leave the illusion of moral judgment beneath himself. This demand follows from an insight which I was the first to formulate: that there are altogether no moral facts. Moral judgments agree with religious ones in believing in realities which are no realities. Morality is merely an interpretation of certain phenomena — more precisely, a misinterpretation. Moral judgments, like religious ones, belong to a stage of ignorance at which the very concept of the real, and the distinction between what is real and imaginary, are still lacking: thus "truth", at this stage, designates all sorts of things which we today call "imaginings". Moral judgments are therefore never to be taken literally: so understood, they always contain mere absurdity.”-Friedrich Nietzsche

Went out with eunice to lunch today at kfc, ps. at kfc were three macs employees. in full macs uniforms . Talk about a lack of loyalty to company.

Anyway, we were supposed to do the youth newsletter. Which is proving harder than i had anticipated. But i've got my interview with Andy already, so that's one down.

For some strange reason im doing youth worship again tomorrow. I have no idea why. The youth ministry is facing a serious lack of mucisians. In my opinion.

There was a PW meeting at 5. It wouldn't be what i call productive, but with kenny in the group things are bound to be fun. And then there's that universal topic to which the class can relate to. Well, most of the class, i guess. My project work group- kenny, charissa, elizabeth, song im- is a nice group to have. I wouldn't trade you guys in for any other project work group in class.

The stability of recent times has been much welcome. I feel pretty upbeat now, though admittedly i've been really sleepy the whole of this week. (cs-s withdrawal?) Heck, i almost feel like i'm unstoppable. There've been the lows of getting back results, but its not managed to dampen my mood thus far. I'm just hoping this lovely wave lasts a little while longer. I think the series on self-talk was very very useful. It got me thinking.

Incidentally, i just bought wipeout pure and fifa'05, both on impulse. But heck, both for a total of twenty-five bucks? Haha its freaking cheap! Sally will be happy.

After a long hiatus this morning im not quite as tired.

This week has been pretty fun. Sally came on sunday. Along with a strong need to be cease unnecessary spending. Which, up to this point, has not come into occurrence. And Tokobot is much harder than i thought. Though I defeated the second boss yesterday!

then from monday to friday i was slaughtered by returning exam scripts. The results were quite expected. Partly cause i didnt study, partly cause i was nursing a bout of flu during the papers. But when the results are announced it hits you anyway.

Went out with Charissa and Charis (timothy-friend) yesterday. It turns out that she's a classmate of one of my primary school mates now in CJ. And also that the mate in question is now a stalker. Which is pretty scary. Not that i considered him completely normal in primary school, but he was a good guy. And he was normal enough to be accepted by his friends. Which is not a universal situation, as my class can attest.

Regarding the last statement, i'd like to quote a classmate of mine. "Its sympathy. Not empathy."

David hurt himself during soccer. Quite badly. Poor guy. Refer to Marcus's blog for the grisly details.

Math tuition yesterday. The teacher looked familar, and it turned out he was from nanhua. But i had no contact with him in secondary school; he didnt teach me or (to the best of my knowledge) anyone i know. But he's not too bad. I sort of understand functions. Which is supposed to be really easy. But really isnt.

Li Liang and Elaine's wedding today. But i've got a PW meeting so i couldn't make it.

I am very sleepy.

Which is why i got pwnd during history today. I was nodding off. And i was taking really long blinks. Like blinking for 5 seconds each time. And getting up with a start. So during one of my extended blinks Ms Narindar saw sleepy keith, and said over the mic, 'SOMEBODY PLEASE WAKE KEITH UP.'

First pwnage: duhh.
Second pwnage: she knows my name. crap.

Its elevenfortyfive now and im doing GP. Im half-asleep. And im going to die tomorrow. Hopefully there's econs. So i can have a little nap.

I've been hit by the dota bug. i must resist. cause i have made a commitment not to. and i will keep to my commitment.

well, our history exam scripts are gone. so we're retaking the paper this tuesday. which is kind of good i guess. that friday i'd just come back from the brouhaha of church camp. and i was very distracted. so my hist paper was pretty screwed up.

yesterday i got the go-ahead to buy my psp. after 10 months of waiting. now all i have to do is save up.

its quite miraculous, really. i'd given up all hope. it seemed completely hopeless; as if all my efforts towards getting what i wanted had been in vain. and it was gone. just for me to admire from a distance, which i did, for a really long while.

and suddenly the hope is revived. it seems in my reach. permission long thought denied is granted. i see the light! its shining on me!

now all i need to do is save up. and then find the time to go to comics connection. or playboxx. or sph.

PSP here i come!!!

funny stuff has been happening in school. funny as in, weird. but it doesnt seem appropriate putting it here. mainly cause i have absolutely no idea who reads this. and it seems absolutely retarded whenever i think about it.

im starting to actually like tutorials now. lit today wasnt too bad. being in the back row is cool. actually, its pretty hot cause the fans dont reach us. but then backrow people pwn. its more casual. and you can sleep if you want to.

and im supposed to do my pbl now. but it kind of sucks doing it alone. so im waiting for charissa to come online. and im doing my best to convince jon to start doing his pbl now. to avoid being too badly pwnd tomorrow.

anyway. things are looking up nowadays. the issues that have been pressing lately have been settled. or put on hold. but that's okay, cos there's no rational way to settle it now. i think. but there's been relative tranquility over here. stability, i would say. if 'brave new world' hadnt completely destroyed and desecrated the word. then again, i'd almost fancy living in brave new world. everybody's happy; in the world portrayed by huxley, there is little rational reason to doubt their morality (if we see things in the world on bnw). but that's beside the point.

hopefully i'll finish my pbl by 3. i want to catch the world cup finals. so i need all the sleep i can get the next few days. i was sort of behind germany. but they're out. too bad, i guess.

incidentally, i got top frag on cs-s just now. i cant tell you how much my ego has been boosted. from now on im just playing terrorists.

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i was supposed to have math tuition with samuel after school today. but sam got the date wrong. or something. so math tuition will start next week.

so sam and i went to ikea for lunch. get jealous, charissa. it was something like three in the afternoon and ikea was quite empty, by ikean standards.

but there really isnt much to shop at ikea. so we went over to queenstown to take a look. over at queensway, we saw some girl from pj. sam went, 'wow she's hot!' i said, 'she looks familiar!' after a while i recognised jiale. haha. it was rather amusing. to me.

then we went to anchorpoint. 'cause queensway has only so much to see.

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY: charissa.

FAVOURITES
favourite colour: black. or white. but white always starts first.
favourite food: erm. it depends on the situation. but i'd go for something chicken.
favourite song: at this point of time --> '25 minutes' and 'breaking my heart' by michael learns to rock.
favourite day of the week: sunday, most of the time. though sometimes its saturday.
favourite season: well now there's only summer. but i loved winter. cos there was snow. and snow is fun.


CURRENTS
current mood: kind of tired. erm. yeah.
current taste: what?
current clothes: tee shirt. shorts.
current desktop: its a redvsblue wallpaper. and its really nice. been there some time though.
current toenail: i refuse to answer questions that arent rational to me. i dont understand!
current time: 11.51PM. JULY 6TH. This is kind of beside the point. but anyway. i promised to do this thing.
current surroundings: there's a dead computer next to me. the internet is inexplicably gone from its presence and nobody's used it for a while.
current annoyances: haha. i dont think you need to know.
current thoughts: gosh why am i doing this thing? i promised not to complain!


FIRSTS
first best friends: some girl-next-door. i cant remember her real name but i called her carrot. she's a vague memory but i recall she was about 7 (really old!), really friendly and blonde.
first crush: in primary school we had an anti-girls' club. no contact with girls. boys rule! (not in the sense it seems to imply though)
first movie: i have no idea. i think it was the little mermaid.


LASTS
last cigarette: pall mall. actually, im supposed to be asthmatic and cant smoke. supposedly.
last drink: a little drop from the inside of a liquor chocolate. which caused three days of hives, 2 visits to AnE, 1 visit to the GP and 2 injections.
last movie: superman returns. with neo and amanda.
last phone call: jiawiei. asking what time he was coming over.

HAVE YOU EVER...
have you ever dated your best friend: nope.
have you ever broken the law: i've jaywalked before, i guess.
have you ever been arrested: nope. duh.
have you ever skinny-dipped: what the heck?
have you ever been on tv: nah.

5 things you are wearing: there's only 3! see above. in currents.
4 things you done today: watched germany v italy, played cs-s, went to ocs, did this thing, went to school.
3 things you can hear right now: the fish tank. there's the sound of running water.
2 things you are going to do: im about to sleep now. one more question.
1 thing you do when you are bored: i think. sometimes it turns into self-talk. but nowadays in succeeding in the battle against self-talk, i think.

We went to the ocs today. it was actually quite fun. though it was a tad draggy. playing with guns is fun.

things have pretty much calmed down a lot this week. which is good, i guess. i could use some routine over here. i think i've been overreacting to some of the things that happened. and as jiawei pointed out, some issues may simply be the fault of my perception. right now its best just to leave everything alone for the time being. not that everything that's been on my mind has been resolved, but no point worrying over things beyond my control.

im quite happy school's reopened. its nice to settle down again and to have some immediate, tangible purpose (abeit temporary) to occupy myself. and there's all the nice people i see everyday. though marcus has been a naughty boy recently havent you marcus. tsktsk.